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I got a job recently, at this place it's full of what we call "normies". It's pretty hard for me due to my anxiety, depression, PTSD and shit like that to deal with these people, like having normal interactions. Yeah I talk and shit, but I gotta stay with these people for over a year, they will notice I'm awkard. I'm pretty awkward, these are people who have a perfectly normal life, at least that's how they look. Like they had an easy life, u know, not characterized mostly by trauma, social anxiety, few to none relationships, just like the typical anon like me So, I gotta act "normal", even tho I've always felt like an outsider when it comes to life, maybe due to trauma, due to being bullied and some other shit, so I always had to cope with how I feel different from the others, and no the look doesn't matter, it's the depression and low self-esteem. It's also passions, like I can't talk about plebbit to them man, u know what I mean? We just think different, they are the typical normies who have perfect life (even tho it's not true but u know what I mean by that) For example they organized a company dinner, did I go? Of course not, I'm a bitch So, how do I deal with this shit? It sucsk man, have you ever felt the same or have you had a similar situation? It's hard out there man, I just wanna stay here alone on my computer not doing anything, but I live alone and need to pay bills and shit. Also, this was like a challenge for me, choosing a IRL job instead of remote job, but it was a fucking mistake, I already feel like shit ffs *Only serious answers, no trolls, no idiots

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by Lucas (u/weaponized-autism.eth) | 21mo ago
I can relate a bit. I was raised in a cult, so real life always made me feel like an outsider. Regarding your situation, I believe there are many ways to approach this. Acknowledge that most of the feelings you're experiencing reside inside your head. Your thoughts don't define who you are. While this may seem simplistic, realizing it will show you that you're the only one worrying about them. You're not your thoughts. They come and go, and you are the person in control. Consider that most people we interact with in real life don't really care about us. Even those closer to us might pretend, but genuine concern is rare. You describe yourself as "awkward," and while there's a chance that others might see you that way, the chance is that they don't really care. I can relate—I'm very much the same, even quite autistic, but I've learned to engage in conversations, indulge in banter, shit talk, and so on. I'm always overly self-conscious about it, but I can blend in nicely. It's mentally and physically challenging, of course, but it's something you can learn to do. Additionally, you need to accept that most people won't share our interests. You might go your whole life without meeting someone who likes the same things you do. The internet can bridge that gap, but 'normies,' normal people in this world, don't dwell much on their interests or where life is taking them. Focus on the things that matter to you. I'm a computer guy as well, and I enjoy spending time alone, doing things like coding and exploring music. This doesn't make you a lesser person; it's just who you are. Remember the job you're in is temporary, so try to think rationally about it. It won't last forever, and it doesn't define you. Life changes over time. I always recommend exercise and meditation to anyone dealing with anxiety and depression. Hitting the gym can work wonders for your mind once you start. Meditation is simple too—you can learn a lot about it online. While these practices won't cure you, they can help you cope with many of life's challenges. Life is tough. Don't give up and keep moving forward, anon.