i wasted my youth, i wasted my life. if you didnt live a normal life with friends, gf, love, excitement between 16-25 you will foreever be seeking a life that you never had; for you wasted your youth, everything you do will be in light of what you missed. you have to cope with higher pursuits but this can only be sustained if you are high iq eg nikola tesla or isaac newton.
My life started out with a 600 pound gorilla raping me for 20 consecutive years. If my soul persists after my death, I will likely morph into a demon and haunt and torture the living.
Plebscan